I’m going to be perfectly honest I don’t want to write this email. I’m crying way to hard to make any degree of sense. So bear with me.
It’s so hard for me to believe I’m coming home. This has all gone so fast I feel like it was a dream. My heart is breaking at the thought of leaving all the people I love so much, especially my companion. Fortunately I get her back in 9 months, everyone else…I have to say goodbye to. Some of these people I will never see again in this life. No wonder when I missionary leaves they say she’s dying.
But at the same time I’m going home! Into a whole new life of opportunities and adventures! I have eternity ahead of me and my family waiting for me! I can finally rest. I’ll finally be able to watch Wonder Woman, and I’ll be able to use everything I’ve learned on my mission to serve and bless the lives of others forever.
To say I’m conflicted is an understatement.
But you know what? I said I silent prayer just know and I feel the sweetest peace. I feel like twenty minutes ago someone ripped my heart in half, but just now it was as if it was put back together in way it wasn’t together before. Well. Now I feel like I can write this email. (Welcome to my brain!)
I know life is hard. The past year and a half has most definitely taught me that, but I also know that “With God, nothing shall be impossible.” (Luke 1:37) I know “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13) I know that as we move forward with faith “relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.” (2 Nephi 31:19) we will find “peace in this world, and eternal life in the world to come.” (D&C 59:23)
I stand with Peter and declare that Jesus is “the Christ, the Son of the living God.” (Matt. 16:16) I know He is “the way, the truth, and the life” (John 14:6). I know He will never leave my side, though there will be plenty of times when I may have reason to ask, “O God, where art thou?” (D&C 121:1), but for each of those times I know He will answer, “My [dear child], peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.” (D&C 121:7-8)
That was a lot of scriptures, but the scriptures are how God speaks to me. Through them I hear His voice and know when I am teaching or learning truth. I have loved my scriptures…and you can tell. They’ve been glued back together several times…but my scriptures and my shoes stand as a testimony of all that I have learned and done. Both are worn to the point where they are almost unusable, but they carry with them miles and hours of work which has taught me who I am and who I am capable of becoming.
I know I am a daughter of God, and He loves me. I know He lives. I know He loves you.
I love you…with all my heart.
Love, Sister Samantha Lucille Johnson
Pictures from this week!
Sunday Morning selfies!!!
This sweet woman is Sister Clark She LOVES the missionaries and we love her!!!
This HUGE puppy is Ava She LOVES everyone And I love her!!!
One of the saddest and silliest goodbyes yet! This is Julia Johnson. We met up with her and her mom Kathy at Mcdonalds on Wednesday and said goodbye. I will miss them.
One of our last lessons with Alexis and Trinidy! we did a faith walk and they both got one of my dresses at the end!!!